Im crying right now and i cant comprehend this!! My brother raped me 3 weeks ago. He came back from a party and he was drunk and i think he took drugs because he wasnt himself and he smelled like a lot of liquor.. he came in the room wobbly and shaky and i asked him what was wrong and he fell on top of me on my bed then he just started kissing me and touching me on my chest and down there and i tried to stop him by pushing him off and screaming at him to get off me but he didnt listen to me and he just kept going… he shoved a pill in my mouth and made me swallow it and he started screaming at me and threatning me then he left and i was crying and i was shaking and i reached for my cell phone and called my friend but i couldnt tell her what happened and i was just crying…i heard him coming up the stairs again and i was so scared i hid my phone and he came in and by then i dont remember much just that i couldnt see well and i was cryign and i felt confused and out of focus and hot too then i just remember him unbuckling my pants and by then i dont remember much when i woke up he was in me and i couldnt move at all i think i might have gotten into shock… i feel really violated and sad:( i already reported it and its the hardest thing because he is my brother and i would have never expected this to happen.. last night he apoligized to me through the phone.. he is no longer living with us.. and he said that he was sorry and he was crying i couldnt take it so i hung up.. why would he do this to me in the first place… why would he hurt me like this… im only 16 and i was still a virgin